A month has passed and I'm not at all sure where it went.
There were the entrance exams i did for the free spot at the art uni. Unsurprisingly unsuccessfully.
Spent few days with ummie at Tartu and carpooled back to Saaremaa with auntie Diana. Then there was the mototoober where I sold a few shirts and enjoyed Evestus' "secret" live.
Rest of my days have been pretty much uneventful. A bit of really effortless schoolwork in my cramped messy awfully hot upstairs room, few lovely lovely trips to the beach and lots of lazy hedonistic lying about with the murrmur.
Read lots of Vonnegut and will keep at it.
Ruined my second pair of headphones by using them as computer speakers.
Finally got 2 commissions I seem to be too lazy to finish since there's still like.. 2 days left to finish the more urgent one. 22 tiny underpriced pencil portraits from terrible quality pohotograps. (4 and a half done in like .. half a week)
I need to pry the lazy out of me because that has been going on for forever. The summer was supposed to be busy art wise but I haven't done jack. There are still 5 tarot cards to finish!

Well.. I'll be back in Tartu in 4-5 days with all my gear and without the main distractors - the internet and the lover.
Even tho he is able to distract me almost as effectively from afar.. by being afar.

Weh.
I would say that my productivity has visibly declined during the last -almost- half a year during which I've been constantly and madly attatched to him.
...

The attatchment seems to be growing stronger too, I just have to learn to live with it AND get stuff done. Surely it has lots to do with my natural leanings towards extreme laziness and escapism.
Actually we're kinda similar taht way. So we just float hand in hand in a lovely daze while days turn to weeks and my projects get stale. *sigh*


Will see what fall brings. Back to Tartu, back to school. Together.
I'm sure everything will turn out great but I am a bit cautious. Not that the balance in our relationship seems fragile to me or anything ..just.. Sometimes it all seems too amazing to be true.