The blog!

Oooo boy, did not think I'd be back on here, nopedy-non.
This place just kinda snuck up on me, it did!
Was reading Tasuja's stories and then read a chapter of Dorians and then I finally sensed I have courage to peep at my own forgotten blogspot blog spot. Was much less cringeworthy than I imagined, more like sweet and cool, with few exceptions.
The last entry being one - boy was I really angry about conceptual art and so proud with my vision of "the true painter".
Meh, I'm way more lax about these things now.
I still love the idea of learning and developing all the written and unwritten rules of visual expression but just because  knowing them well I can break them much more elegantly.
Today I'm a teacher of painting, drawing and colour theory, and I firmly teach the fundamental, constructive rules but not breaking them. The decision to break them depends on every students own intellect and I also don't have enough time with them to even give them more than the barest of basics.

K.
I mentioned that I'm a teacher now.
Yeah!
A lot has gone down since april'14. It's been almost 2 years!
K, here goes.
The diploma work came out pretty neat, a tad different from my initial vision but that only means I have to keep creating. And it never ends anyway.
But it came out grand nonetheless, I got even mentioned in Sirp as the most iconic piece of all the diploma work exhibition. Graduated happily, life was so good! Too good in fact.
Got dumped, it was the worst. Apparently he had made his mind up forever ago but stood by me unrtil I graduated, to let me focus on my diploma. What a champion.
 Excruciating pain from such abandonment was unbelievable, that was first time for me, I fought like a raged cat under the shower at first, I pleaded, I weeped, I got dark and drunk. And then it was over and I decided to stop the pain somehow. It lead to intense period of fasting, meditation and overall soul searching. A two-week period of total cleanse, 3-days solo and naked at my great-grandmothers abandoned house by Pärnu river and all that was topped with a weekend at Yoga camp in Haapsalu. Got back with a tan, henna tattoo and pink crystal beads, all zenned out. The end of the summer was a pretty powerful time, since  by then I had tuned my energy to a really high and fast moving frequency.
I then turned the volume to 11 on trap music, weed and beer, travelled around Estonia a bit, got featured in nihilist.fm a few times, sold some works and got me a boyfriend from Saaremaa.

 I still lived in Tartu when the bf helped me to get a job at the Kuressaare Vocational School, my old school before the uni where he also teaches all the cool design stuff.
From september to december I travelled between Tartu and Kuressaare, until this got to be a bit much and I decided to move back to my parents home in jan.
The boy and I soon got a tiny appartment in the town and in april moved to our current fabulous pad, 3-room apartment with balcony and sauna.
I've been doing exhibitions like no tomorrow, there was Sügisnäitus in 2014 fall, then another personal show in Varbola in '14 november i think, then in '15 spring in disainimajakas AND in Tartu Noorus, then in '15 summer in mustjala, then co-show with dad in kuressaare cutural center in '15 fall.
Then another one just recently in Ajamaja with 4 other cool kids and in May I will finally have my first solo show in the  Kuressaare castle cafe (and I already made a deal with them that I want to make a more powerful overview exhibiton in the main gallery there in the future).
 I'm also planning to show in Tallinn soon, local prominent culture people are helping to make that happen for me now.

 Huuh.
So I've been arting and teaching and living a homely family life with the bf and the cat. Also keeping up with my studies of the metaphysics and meditating. Also yoga.

Also I rode horses in Tartu and Saaremaa for a few spells.

Oki, so here I have loosely mapped more prominent exterior happenings of my recent life. I feel I've caught up and also this post is long.
There have been tons of much different inner currents flowing but I dont feel like tuning into that cryptic channel at the moment.

But it sure feels nice to write a blog again. :3