Ha, noticed another silly useless pattern - how in at least every other blog post I, less subtly than insistently, state that I crave for new friends, connections, so on.
Gonna give a shot at cracking this now.
I make new connections, acquaintances very often.. and about making new friends? Well.. I am very picky I guess and also .. I do not get out enough even to see my very few old and close friends whom I have since my grubhood.
I thought about them too. With everyone in this "elite" little circle there was this instant knowing, recognizing - yeah That person rules, gonna keep 'er.
Heh I remember when I had this feeling the first time in 5th grade, with Kala - it was a great impact on both of us, we were speechless - HOW COOL ARE YOU?! No other kids in our life until that point had come close. And the adventure began.
Similar thing happened with Hertta too, she pretty much just picked me up from the smoking butka on one of the first days of ametikool. She said it was my orange leather coat that gave me away. And well yea I had this aura of authority since I was already repeating the first year. And she also had this strong vibe of happy mischief, and she still does.
So yea you always attract the people right for you. I think it's ok if there aren't many people that stick to me. No, it's better than ok, that means ~~~ I ma spesail~~~. Or well. . also that I have had other things in my life to focus on. All in it's own time.
But I have met a lot of cool people, some are even bafflingly awesome but there never was any need to keep close to them. Or well. some that I met I did "recognize" but I have been way too shy/busy/lazy to step out and do anything about it. or. yea.
So anyway- I can't really whine at lack of friends, I already have all the satisfactory relationships I need, both close and casual..and a little bit of room reserved, just in case.
So there, so much better. One less thing to whine about.
I think I might throw a party.
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